"Genie" (a poem)

Is 3 your lucky number?

I wish I knew myself

I wish I never started so I never have to stop

Maybe have the ability to love

Maybe be loved the way I love

I would've done anything to not be so sensitive

To be understood with no words, fully

To feel included instead of reading that book again for the first time

Maybe even feel happy in my own body

Perhaps not be shacked to the chain of addiction

I wish I could forget it all

Find out what's really wrong, get the right diagnosis

To not need validation through sexualization

Enjoy a meal properly and feeling full

I wish I understood myself

I wish I fought for the apology I never got

Maybe get them back and be my best friend's best friend

I'm sorry

I passed your limit again.